um, i apologize you guys. i kind of forgot i had a blog.
i'm not ignoring you :)
we have a lot of catching up to do! hokay, i'll try and keep things in chronological order.
first of all, i got my hair cut! i dont have any good pictures of myself yet, but you'll get them when i do :) im having trouble getting used to bangs. i can't seem to train them to part on the side instead of the middle. but its getting better!
on Monday, December 13th, my perfect grandma passed away from her cancer. we are missing her very much, and will continue to. but we all are very happy for her homecoming, and cant wait to see her again someday soon! she was a very quiet, wise, godly example. my mom is a lot like her, i see grandma everytime i look at her. and i hope to also be like them someday!
birthdays aren't the only holidays that get us to reflect on our years past. the new year is coming, and that means a fresh start. i'm not a fan of 2010, and am hoping to hold onto everything i've learned from this year to make 2011 a fresher, more exciting year. i am focusing very specifically on improving myself, my outlook, and my happiness. so here is a list of my new year's resolutions. they all will be very difficult, but are very important to me to achieve. so i will work on one at a time, and update you on my improvements. i'm not expecting to really "achieve" most of them, as they are going to be a continual work in progess:
1. i have vowed to myself to cut a certain someone out of my life completely.
this is the one i have begun already, as it will be the very hardest. my former best friend and receiver of my deepest love. i have known for some time that my feelings for him will stay with me if i keep him in my life. there is no other way for me to move on from him, other than cutting him out completely. my dependance upon him and hope to have with him what we used to have has been the main cause of my unhappiness. so, goodbye him. as i said, this resolution will be the very hardest.
2. i will spend intimate time each day with the Lord - to learn from him, trust my burdens to him, and just be still with him.
the more i read his Word, the more i see the world through his eyes. my whole self changes, and i become closer to being one with him. it is a feeling i wish to spread to everyone i know :)
3. i will remove all negative words from my mouth, and decrease all negative thoughts (specifically about other people).
as a human, this goal is impossible, but i wish to come as close to it as i can. with #2 on my side, it will be a lot easier! as i begin to see the world through the Lord's eyes, i will begin to think like him, and live like him.
4. i will receive my associate's degree in human resource management.
with only one semester left to go, i hope to have my degree before 2011 is over. i've worked hard so far, and it will pay off!
4.5. i will find a career (not a job), hopefully within my major.
i'm ready for a big girl paycheck, and am excited for adult responsibilities! nothing scares me more than change and uncertainty, but i am ready for a challenge. :)
5. i will achieve happiness with myself alone.
for years, i have put my whole self into being with a man. well, no more. i wish to change that way of feeling, until i am happy with myself alone :) only then can i truly be happy with another person.
um, that's it. if you put yourself through reading all of that, thanks! hehe. it was a bit much. joy and health to all of you!
juls
